Mon 22 Dec 2008
"Sometimes you have to encourage yourself’" goes the refrain on a gospel song that I’ve been leaning on lately. Oh yes, it’s red-zone deadline territory and your gurl is reaching for any inspiration she can get her speed-typing fingers on.
I’m nearing the deadline for my romantic comedy (PERFECT SHOT hits bookstores in the Fall of ‘09). It’s to the point that I have daily writing goals that I desperately need to hit. Ain’t it amazing how many excuses come to mind when your back it against that wall?
Times like these (among other times) I miss my mommy. She’s the one I can truly whine to. And that I did. Miss the bus and it’s freezing at the bus stop? Pull out that cell phone and whine to Mummy about it. Apartment a mess and don’t know where to start? Call up Mummy and whine about it. Sure, this makes me sound like a total brat–but that’s not my point here, folks. The fact is–Mummy was always ready with encouragement that charged up my depeleted batteries when I needed it most.
Her advice was a nourishing pep talk that usually ended with "Get to it–I’m praying for you," or "I’ll call you in a few minutes to see how you’re making out." By the time I hung up, it usually felt like I just downed a can of Red Bull. I was amped and ready to tackle whatever lay ahead.
My mom was like an empath. You stubbed your toe and she felt it. Watching her contort her beautiful face in empathy was enough to zap that ache from your bunion. Also, as she liked to say, God listens to a mother’s prayer. So if I told her of my challenges, she could put in a good word for me.
My mom passed away last year. It’s taken me a while to say that. I only feel comfortable saying it now because pretty soon we’ll be in 2009, where that statement will no longer be true. :-( It was tough coming into 2008 because my mother never experienced it. Still, the fact that 2008 rubs shoulders with 2007 kept her close–which was comforting to me. That’s what makes me sad about moving on to 2009. But Mummy will never be past tense to me.
When I first watched this performance of "Encourage Yourself" I was moved to tears. The singer has a quiet poise even when she’s sangin’ with all her might. That’s my Mummy Viviane Rigaud to a "T!" Always dignified. Even more jolting–the lyrics were like a message straight from Mummy. These are all the things she’d tell my three sisters and me. And I’m sure my mom’s biggest worry is that she’s not here to encourage us. That’s why stumbling onto a video like this was no coincidence.
I got the message, Mummy. Thanks for leading me to it!
And P.S. Sorry about all that whining.




